CHECKING IN

I think I have decided to resurrect the blog. Considering my track record of a one year-plus hiatus, I cannot say whether it will live on after this post. All I know is that I feel ready to blog again. As to why I quit blogging, I think an incomplete post from May 10, 2010 best provides some insight:

Every once in a while, I pull out the ol’ jacket of self-pity and try it on for size. Most of the time, I quickly remember that it never looks good on me and hang it back up. (Or, let’s be honest -- I throw it on the floor; I’m not that neat of a person.) But sometimes, even though it looks hideous, it just fits. Thus, I zip the jacket to the collar, cinch the hood, and curl up on the couch.

Sometimes I think that I made the wrong decision when I chose to go to medical school. This is one of those revelations that fall under the hindsight-is-twenty-twenty cliché , where the now-Crystalle would go back in time and try to convince the eager and ambitious then-Crystalle that the intangible demands and sacrifices of medical school are way beyond explanation.

Though just a small glimpse into how I was feeling at the time, these thoughts were ones that have resurfaced many times throughout the past four years. I’m not going to go into the details here, and I highly doubt that I ever will, but I just couldn’t blog and be sincere. I was tired of feeling (albeit self-induced) pressure to present a happy picture to the world. At the same time, however, I didn’t want to be a debbie-downer or complain. So, I just quit writing.

I have recently read some of my old posts and have realized that blogging was an outlet for me. It was a way for me to be somewhat creative, brush up on my technical writing skills, reflect, and (loosely) serve as a historian.

A lot of things will be changing in the next few months for the Evans’ household. We will be moving to Oklahoma City in a little over three weeks where I will start residency. Last time I mentioned anything in the blog, I was considering Family Medicine vs. Emergency Medicine. Then I decided that I wanted to do Internal Medicine, but ended up making a last minute change in plans.

But that's another story for another day. Until next time! : )